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SandCastle
04:03
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If despair could wash away, then I'd be baptized everyday
Plunge my face into the blue, in hopes my prayers would soon come true
I've stitched my lips into a smile, in hopes my words won't give away
The voice inside gives into pain, then simmers down after awhile
I've dug myself into the sand, and built a castle tall and grand
To keep the thieves from breaking in, to stab me over and over again
I shun away the people, who will listen to my plea
For my suffering's not their own, no need to drag them down with me
Their words pass through my ears, and die somewhere along the way
They missed their goal, to save a soul, in depression I will stay
To fake a smile, is to live a lie
If this is true, then I long to die.
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Logic is a fallacy
crippled by anxiety
wretched and unsparingly
ripped away all reasoning
Clouded mind, tired eyes
Molded into this design
Of emptiness and endless lies
Nothing left but the will to die
Trapped in a void
Always paranoid
Stuck in lost days
Cuts like a knife
What would suffice
To stop this pain?
Are you afraid to let it go?
To leave behind what you've always known?
If there is a will to be
It is shadowed by hypocrisy
voices contradict themselves
Plunged into a living hell
Anger fuels
Thoughtless acts
Of hate and spite
You'll push the world
back into space
To leave yourself behind
Are you afraid to let it go?
To leave behind what you've always known?
And look ahead to time unsewn?
For the future's something no one knows
Are you afraid to let it go?
To leave behind what you've always known?
And look ahead to time unsewn?
For the future's something no one knows
Do you think you can end it all?
While you beckoned yourself to death's call
If only you knew what I saw.
If only I could save you from your fall
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Not until you open your eyes, will you begin to see the sun arise
But some like mine are red and sore, such eyes the sun would never bore
Our time has fallen off, now the hour is drawing near
I can make out my reflection, in the face of a lover's tear
There's no need for goodbyes, no sense in bids farewell
Our voices cut off sharply by the sound of a warning bell
Till death do us part, or in time now we must heed
Back to whence we came from, we've lost the time to plea
Now I'm lying on her bed, crying in the pillow where she laid her head
To sleep a peaceful night, next to me
One last time, one last night
Who'll be left, to save my soul
My hands are numb, I'm growing cold
And on this day, of shattered grey
I kiss goodbye my life as a stain
I can't wait to be nothing
I'm almost already there
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4. |
Interlude
03:13
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5. |
Care
04:27
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How can you help me
Heal your wounds?
The ones made at my hands
The ones I've put on you?
I don't need a saint
To tell me, I have wrong
I would say I'm sorry
But that can't undue
What's been done
I would drink your tears
Like the finest wine
Once I wanted nothig more
Than to watch you cry
I watched you helplessly
As you grovel at my feet
I smiled holding victory
While you waved your flag of defeat
I watched you bring the razor down
Spilling rivers red with sorrow
You have given up on today
Lost all faith in tomorrow
You made me realize
While you laid there in pain
That all my work for saving you
To save me
Was all in vain
Cut me down from here
Pick me up if you dare
If nothing else you will believe
Marks this down as true: I care
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6. |
Rain
12:33
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I'm losing touch (My mind has died)
I'm lost inside (My rotting mind)
Bleed my veins (Gouge my eyes)
Pull me down (Past all my lies)
I've lied
I've died
A two pronged life (I've tried to hide)
Has been revealed (Is now alive)
Peace of mind (I've tried to keep)
To keep it strong (I must deceive)
I've tried and failed to ignore the pain
What started bad just ends the same
And all the work to stall the hurt
Comes crashing down on me
I'm sorry for the betrayal
For destroying your dwindling trust
But I needed to keep the world happy
To appease my sickening lust
If I could bring a single smile
Then I'll put the tears to rest
Yet you see me as nothing but vile
And my reasoning for love you suppress
I was fed up with who you are
So sick of my ties to your name
But still I promised that I'd be a shoulder
To cry on throughout your days
And it was never enough
never meeting your demands
I was fed up
But still sinking into the sand
I moved on
In halves, in parts, not whole
For at the center of my gaping heart
lies a bleeding, blackened hole
And then you found me
you tricked me again
I fell face first
I fell hard for you again
I tried to keep you happy, but you were one of many
Still you saw nothing, so now I'm here
Tell me I've wronged
I never wanted this
To become the monster I loathed to be
I swore against him on my life
That creature would never be me
But now I've broken what once I held dear
And shunned myself into shame
I've taken hold of the hand of misfortune
He led me blindly through the rain
Why do you plague my mind?
Why does your voice infest my bones?
Now you see that you got your revenge
I am cold, defeated and alone
I thought things could last forever
What more childish thoughts could I perceive?
Now I see that we could never
fall back asleep, together, in our dream.
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7. |
The Ending Track
03:35
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Despondence Panama City, Florida
Despondence is a 4 piece post-metal/ experimental band from Panama City Florida, consisting of frontman and bassist Nick
Resler, guitarist Kyle Watson, guitarist Christian Pic and drummer Grant Talkington.
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